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Our first date.
Our first library date.
Our first kiss.
Our first cuddling in the rain.
The first time I discovered I love walking.


Yeah. If there's one thing I'm good at, its definitely remembering dates or special events like those. I can still remember everything that happened on that day and the day after that and the day before that day. And I'm fifty shades fucked up now. Well, thank you so much. Fu po.
No, the truth is, I hope I'll stop caring and writing about you because this is really getting old now. Some friends, BFFs, and families are getting tired worrying and listening to the same old shit everytime I turns into drama queen and I can really feel that they sooo wanted to kick my arse everytime that inner sadness chenelin I have pops out. I also can feel myself shooing away that chenelin in me. Move on move on din pag may time. So, this is it pancit.

life is tough.but you must be tougher!

Phew! Here we are now! Another month has passed by in a blur! I cannot believe its already Feb! What does that mean? A brand new start?? Pretty please!!! After all the BS last month, after all the shocking news and secrets, shit after shit, all the cryings, dramas, joys, laughters, mosquito bites, anything! I think its safe to say any time is a great time to make a brand new start. Wait, does that make sense? Heh.

So, February. I remember two years ago, month of Feb, I sent someone an SMS that changed my whole life. Yes, my whole life. Since then I've been always excited for this month to come.. But you know what, I don't have much time for the pain now so let's just leave it that way and save it for the future entry. Yeah, really. *chuckles*

But. I know. I'm sure. One day I will fall in love again.
One day I will fall in love again, might be tomorrow, or next week or next month, or next year..we will see. But it will happen eventually. So bring it on!

your now.

I haven't posted something for over a month now -because I was so
busy, or not! Heh, but there are still some entries I wanna post.
Hopefully I can find some time to write down all of them in the
following days.

Anyway, I was with a friend last night, catching up with some stuffs
while having coffee when he asked me about future. "What are your
plans for your future now?" This question somehow caught me off guard.
Seriously. Hehe. Not that I'm lacking interest or any plans for my
future or something like that. But(if you know me personally, you'd
know.) I already had one before. A solid plan for my future. Our
future. *ssh, forget about it* And now that everything changed, I was
caught up. I didnt know how and what to answer him. I was just
whistling there (i know its a very unprofessional way to do but its
been my favorite escapisim these days.LOL) thinking of answers, and it
gave me headache. Shesh. As if I was brainstorming. Phew! Then I
realized, why give a fuck. Future is ooooover there! Waaaay far from
today. Why would I let the future ruin my today? In the first place, I
am happy with how my life is going NOW, with what is happening with my
life NOW, with the people who are in my life NOW and where my life is
taking me NOW. My family are awesome, we're cool, no problems so far.
I'm also in good terms with my friends, I'm doing pretty good with my
job now, I'm okay with my boss and with my officemates as well.. So
far so good. So, why not just live in the present. Live and enjoy the
moment. Nothing is wrong with planning your future but if its
affecting your present, uurgh, just screw it and just live today.