well.. *shrugs*

omg, i know i promised myself not to miss you. and ta-dah, i am missing you right now. opps. no drama. 

Christian & Ana

He says nothing. I glance over at him and his eyes are closed.

"yes, heaven," he says softly. "i meant what i said."

"what?"

"I dont want to let you go."


"i dont want to go."

He smiles and it's this new, shy smile that dissolves everything in
its path. Boy, its powerful.

"good,"he says simply, and he visibly relaxes.

I can feel the spirit of Christmas..

Few more days and its December!!! Yayyy! :) Im excited for Christmas!!! Well, I'm always am. Its my favorite time of the year. Family reunions, delicious foods, lights everywhere, love everywhere, cold nights, and gift giving :) And for all those things and more, I always welcome December with open arms.

I'm thinking of making a wishlist, a Christmas wishlist. But I guess I'm too shy -or not- to blat it out to you people. Haha! But seriously, I cant think of anything I REALLY want this Christmas.. maybe some L-O-V-I-N' would do ;) Geez.. Although, quite honestly, when it comes to gifts, Im too easily pleased by almost anything. Why not take a look, here's mine :

• MOLESKINE - shizznit! i love it!! or anything paper, notebook whatever. 
• PEN/S - see, i just love writing.. i used to collect pens before, but i'd still love to have some. :)
• BOOK/S - anything will do, OMG i'd go crazy and ba-na-na for books. 
• SLEEPING MASK - sleeping eye mask for my ultimate comfort. lol
• E-BOOK READER - :P i lost my ebook reader before. it felt so bad it felt like i lost someone special. i need one. :P
• A NICE MUSIC PLAYER - oppss! electronic again. sorry! i just love music, i need one. bohoho
• TRIP TO EUROPE - *crossed fingers*
• HUGE HUGE TEDDY BEAR - i never had one. period.
• HARIBO - and make me happy :)
• IRON CURLER - blahahaha!
• ORANGE ROSES - i think orange is strange, and i love receiving flowers just so you know.
• A THREADMILL - another electronic. :) 
• LETTERS - i love letters, or emails. whatever. 

So there, I think that is all for this holiday. What about yours?

your now.

I haven't posted something for over a month now -because I was so
busy, or not! Heh, but there are still some entries I wanna post.
Hopefully I can find some time to write down all of them in the
following days.

Anyway, I was with a friend last night, catching up with some stuffs
while having coffee when he asked me about future. "What are your
plans for your future now?" This question somehow caught me off guard.
Seriously. Hehe. Not that I'm lacking interest or any plans for my
future or something like that. But(if you know me personally, you'd
know.) I already had one before. A solid plan for my future. Our
future. *ssh, forget about it* And now that everything changed, I was
caught up. I didnt know how and what to answer him. I was just
whistling there (i know its a very unprofessional way to do but its
been my favorite escapisim these days.LOL) thinking of answers, and it
gave me headache. Shesh. As if I was brainstorming. Phew! Then I
realized, why give a fuck. Future is ooooover there! Waaaay far from
today. Why would I let the future ruin my today? In the first place, I
am happy with how my life is going NOW, with what is happening with my
life NOW, with the people who are in my life NOW and where my life is
taking me NOW. My family are awesome, we're cool, no problems so far.
I'm also in good terms with my friends, I'm doing pretty good with my
job now, I'm okay with my boss and with my officemates as well.. So
far so good. So, why not just live in the present. Live and enjoy the
moment. Nothing is wrong with planning your future but if its
affecting your present, uurgh, just screw it and just live today.