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A Wife's Unfailing Love For Her Husband
I, Sarah Adams take you, Lawson Kuti as my lawful
wedded husband, to love and to cherish, in sickness and
in health, till death do us part" she smiled at him through
her veil.
"You may now kiss your bride Mr. Lawson" The Pastor
beckoned.
Lawson's heart raced as he gently unveiled his bride's
face. She looked so beautiful. He gently bent over and
placed a soft kiss on her lips. Sarah in turn embraced
him tightly with tears of joy streaming down her face.
"Never leave me Sarah" He whispered in her ear.
"I will never leave you" she whispered and they slowly
released themselves from the embrace.
"I present to you the latest couple!" The Pastor exclaimed
excitedly
The church cheered and Sarah cried more in her
husband's arms
5 years Later
Sarah silently tip toed behind her husband. He was in his
study, engrossed in reading. She smiled to herself and
gently covered his eyes with both hands.
"It's just you and I in this house Sara, plus, I smelled you
the moment you walked in" He dropped
Sara released her hold, sighed and sat on the study table,
"Why do you figure me out so easily? I can't even
surprise you! That sucks" she curled her arms around his
neck
"You are my wife, nothing you do is supposed to surprise
me" He playfully pecked her nose.
"But you've been in the study all day and I'm bored!" She
rolled her eyes
"So what kind of fun do you suggest we have then?" He
swooped her off the table in his arms
"No! no that kind of fun!" She hit him playfully till he put
her down
"Ok", He folded his arms on his chest, looking into her
eyes, "So what do you want us to do?"
"Not us. Actually, all I want is to play with your play
station and you've hidden it again! Just give it to me and
you can continue your reading, pleaaaseee" She blinked
her eyes playfully
"No way", He went back toward his study chair and sat,
"Not my play station"
"Why! You never let me touch it…like its your baby" She
sulked
"Well", he rolled his eyes, "Not like you've given me a
baby yet"
Sara paused for a moment. Did he just say that to her?
The words struck her deep down
"You shouldn't have said that Lawson…" She managed to
say, her countenance changing.
"But it's true…I'm only saying the truth Sara" He turned
to face her, still sitting on the chair.
"The truth? You think I don't want us to have kids?"
"Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that…" He stood to
face her now.
"Then what are you saying Lawson? Tell me, what is the
truth?"
"Let's not do this today…please. You can have the play
station and play all you want. It's in my footwear locker
and the key is in my Bible"
"You always do this…hurting me with your words" Her
voice began to shake
"Don't start Sara please"
"Tell me why you said those words to me! I want to
know!"
"Because I'm tired! I want to be a father! I want to have
my own kids Sara…"
" and you think I don't?!" Sara flared, trying not to let the
tears pour
"Then why can't you get pregnant Sara? This is the fifth
year we are trying." He clenched his teeth and walked out
of the study room.
Sara was in shock. She sat on the chair for some
seconds, stood up again and sat on the chair again…this
time she held on to her blouse and burst into tears.
2weeks after
"Lawson, wake up please" Sara tapped him
Lawson gently opened his eyes and looked at the alarm
clock by his bedside, "It's 2:00am Sara…"
"It's urgent"
"I'm listening" He said drowsily
"Mother says we should come for tests. She says she's
spoken to her doctor and he said we should come."
"What?" Lawson opened his eyes now, "Your mother is in
the UK for Christ's sakes"
"Let's just do it. We can go for the weekend, lets just
give it a shot, please."
"No. That would be rather expensive and…"
"It's my birthday today and the only thing I want from
you is this trip"
Lawson fell quiet now. For the past two years now, his
wife's birthday skips his mind…totally.
"I'm…I'm sorry Sara…It skipped my mind…"
"It always does" She lay down back on the bed, backing
him.
Lawson wrapped his arms around her waist, "I said I'm
sorry…"
No response.
Lawson sighed, "Fine, we go this weekend"
"Really?" She turned sharply, excited
"If it will make you happy today"
"Thank you baby" She hugged him.
A week after
Sara jerked at the vibration of the phone in her pocket.
"Hi mom!" she pressed the phone to her ear with her
shoulders, wiping the washed dishes with her hands.
"Honey…"
"What is it mom?" she pressed it harder
"The result…the result of the tests…" her mother cried
Sarah gently dropped the plate and the wiper, hear
racing…"Just say it mom…"
That night
"I can never have children Lawson…" Sara cried
Lawson felt his world crash right in front of him, "W…
what?"
"Mama called today…she's gotten the tests results"
"Jesus Christ" Lawson stood, placing his palm on his
head, "b…but you told me you were ok before we got
married, you told me the doctor said your abortion didn't
damage your womb"
"Don't bring my past into this!" Sara flared
Lawson laughed and got serious almost immediately,
"You are crazy. I married a crazy woman!"
Sara looked at him in shock, like he'd lost his mind.
"The results say you can never have children and we both
know that this has to do with the abortion you had before
we met!", he flared, "are you happy?…you know we're
screwed right? No kids? what re we going to tell the
world?"
"Lawson we can adopt…" Sara cried
"Adopt? Wow!", he laughed again, "I married a funny
woman too!" He got serious again, "Its still not our baby!
The damn baby is not my flesh and blood! You are full of
deceit Sara" He looked into her eyes. Sara could see him
fighting his tears.
"Lawson stop…you are hurting me…" Sara fell on her
knees crying
"You want to know what I'm thinking?" Lawson looked at
her with disgust, "I'm thinking how on earth I'm going to
stand seeing your deceitful face for the rest of my life"
"Sara cried harder, "Dont give up Lawson…So far I have a
womb…I can still carry our baby…"
"I am not giving up on having my baby, I'm giving up on
you" Lawson turned around to leave
"Lawson!" She held his feet, "I'm hurting too…"
He only dragged his feet from her hold and drove out of
the house. She wept.
A month Later
"Mother, he's not even talking to me. All of a sudden we
are both strangers…He doesn't eat my food, comes home
late…he hates me so much and it's killing me. I'm
confused…to think that it's truly hurting…"
"For how long will you hide this truth from him. You've
got to let him know…you can't carry his…"
There was the sound of a car horn
"Mom I've got to go…he's back"
"Baby, you've got to let him know. It can work when you
two are one in mind"
"Bye mom" she ended the call.
Lawson came into the house, about to walk past her.
"Lawson" She held him
"I'm tired" He didn't want to look at her face
"I know…can we talk for some minutes?" She tried to help
him remove his suit
"Look what is it" He jerked from her
"Do you hate me this much? you can't even look me in
the eye? you can't even stand my sight? Lawson…it's me
Sara…your best friend…" Her eyes grew moist
"I'm in no mood for this" He turned around to walk away
"Don't you dare leave when I'm talking to you!" She
dragged him by the suit. Just then, some papers fell to
the floor. Sara quickly bent to pick them up…her hands
shook and her body became numb all over.
"D…divorce papers? Lawson?" She searched his eyes
"Answer me goddammit!" She held him by the collar of
his shirt, crying
"They are for you to sign. I want to be out" Lawson
dropped
"Y…you what?" she slowly freed him from her hold
"It's not going to work Sara, can't you see?"
"Lawson I can't believe you would think of a divorce and
even go this far…why are you so wicked!" she cried,
angry
"No! Why are you so wicked!" He retorted, flaring
"Think about me for once. I am a man for Christ's sakes.
My children are my pride! and you are about to deny me
that for the rest of my life because of your stupid
mistake!"
"What about me! have you stopped for once to think
about what I'm going through"
"It's your cross, carry it" Lawson fixed his angry eyes on
his wife
"No, its now our cross and I am not signing those divorce
papers! We vowed never to leave each other!"
"Isn't it better Sara that you save yourself more hurt and
sign these papers than to see another woman move into
this house before your very eyes?" he said with a tone of
sarcasm
Sara's heart thumped, "What?"
"You heard me…another woman who can help raise a
family, so save yourself the stress and sign the damn
papers. I need it tomorrow"He turned around to leave
again
"She still can't carry your baby" Sara dropped
"Not all women had abortions. Not every woman was like
you." He scorned
"You are the one who can't give me a child!" Sara let
out, crying.
Lawson stopped now, turned around and walked towards
her, "Whatever your plan is won't work"
"I told you I could never have a child because its you
who can't make me pregnant"
"Shut up! shut up Sara! what the hell are you saying!" He
shook her shoulders violently
"You are infertile Lawson…the doctor says you have
primary infertility…" Sara burst into tears
Lawson gasped, loosing his balance.
"Mother called me to give me the news. I was shattered, I
felt like my world was over but more importantly I
thought of you. I thought of what the news could do to
you, I thought of the best way to tell you… never for once
did i think of leaving you. I bore your insults, your scorn,
because of my past. It was so easy to judge me and
think of yourself. I am the one who is hurting, I am the
one who should bring some miserable divorce papers…
but I thought of you…I thought of hope, faith and a
miracle…I thought of my vow to you on that altar. In
sickness and in health remember?", she smiled through
her tears, "all of a sudden you are as weak as a baby…
looking in your eyes, I can see you sudenly have lost all
your guards, You are so wicked"
"Sara…" Lawson fell on his knees, torn.
"No!" She quickly fell on her knees too, "No Lawson…"
She couldn't bear to see him cry
"I'm…I'm infertile", he cried, "What is left of me?" he
searched his wife's eyes
"Lawson please…" she held his face, "I understand…it has
been so hard for me…I have put myself in your shoes
since the first day…"
"You don't deserve this…you deserve better…I can't
believe I scorned you all along…please let me leave you"
"No" she shook her head, "You are my husband. I won't
leave you. I won't let you leave me…I believe in miracles"
"I'm doomed…Sara I'm doomed…"He allowed his wife
take him in her arms and on her shoulder he wept like a
child.
In the Morning
Sara gently opened her eyes, looking beside her bed…it
was empty. She quickly sat up on seeing a note gently
placed on the bed. Hands shaking, she opened the letter
to read.
Sara,
I cannot bear the shame. I have treated you so unfairly,
yet you love me still, you are with me even in this
condition of mine. To think that you knew all along and
you never for once gave me a clue that it is my fault we
are in this mess, makes me so unworthy of you. I love
you enough to let you build another life with a man who
can make you happier. I'm torn Sara and all I ask is your
forgiveness. I have always loved you and if you truly love
me then please start your life over again…without me…I
am truly sorry for disappointing you.
Lawson.
Sara couldn't control the tears. She couldn't think
straight anymore. She picked her cell phone, shaking…
"Hi Mr. Lawson's office please"
"Hi Lola…" she cried, "have you seen my husband
today?"
"No…no ma'am, we've been expecting him at work. He
has a presentation is fifteen minutes"
"Oh God…God…" Sara dipped her hand in her full hair
"Everything ok ma'am?"
"Thank you" she ended the call.
She quickly got down from the bed and in her pyjamas
she ran into her car. She dialed his number repeatedly as
she drove…no answer.
At 2:00pm
She sped into Fred's compound, a close friend to her
husband.
"Fred!" she banged the door hastily till the door flung
open
"My God Sara what's wrong?" Fred held her
"It's…it's Lawson…have you seen him? is he here?"
"No…Haven't heard from him in a week"
"Oh God" she held her hair
"What's wrong?"
But she was already walking away into her car.
"Sara!" He called after her.
She zoomed away.
4:30pm
"Mom, Dad, I can't find Lawson…I can't find your son…"
she cried as she paced in front of the two who looked
lost
"You have to calm down and tell us what happened"
Lawson's mother put her arms around Sara.
Sara burst into tears, "Please Dad could you try his
number, maybe he'd pick your call?"
"Have you been to his office?" He picked his cellphone
and dialed his son's number
"I have been everywhere I know him to be likely
available"
"It's ok…calm down please" Lawson's mother pet her
"He's not picking. What exactly went wrong between you
two?" Lawson's father searched Sara'a eyes
9:00pm
Sara was still in her pyjamas and on her way back home,
exhausted and stuck in the traffic. She had told
Lawson's parents everything. The poor couple was so
shattered and also begging her to begin a new life. Sara
buried her head on the steering, crying; she hadn't
realized the green light.
"Hey get off the freaking road!" a driver cursed from
behind her
"God please don't let him harm himself…keep him safe
and lead me to him…please God…" she quickly started
the car and began to move.
Suddenly she remembered the church where they wedded
and took their vows. It was two hours from here; she
made a u-turn and headed for the church hoping to find
some peace.
She tiredly got down from the car, drenched and
exhausted. She trudged into the open entrance of the
church. She paused for a moment; shocked…it was
Lawson sitting at the front row of the empty church,
facing the altar.
"Lawson!" She began to run towards him, happy, relieved
that he was ok.
"Sara?" He quickly stood as she approached him,
"Sara…"
They both ran into each other's arms. He hugged her so
tightly
"I looked for you everywhere….this was the last place I
thought you'd ever be…I just came and I saw you…
Lawson….I'm so happy you are ok" she touched his face
"I didn't know where else to go…It just feels like I cant
face the world anymore…" he slowly released her from his
embrace.
"Take my hand" Sara stretched out her hand, "C'mon, just
take it"
Lawson gently clasped his hand into hers and she took
him to the altar and stood to face him. She searched his
eyes so deeply and hadn't seen him so weak and
helpless.
"Five years ago Lawson, we both stood on this altar.
Remember our vows? Remember you whispered in my ear
never to leave you. I told you I wouldn't…that's why I'm
here. I am your wife Lawson, I am meant to be with you
forever, though the bad and good times. We've had good
times, why would I leave you now? All I want from you is
to believe that you can still give me a child despite what
the result said…I want you to believe in a miracle", she
held his face, "remember when you told me I was a
miracle in your life?…our children will be our miracles
too. Trust God with me because I know it won't be
long…"
"Who are you Sara…" Lawson was weak with her words
"The one who vowed to be with you till the end" she
smiled through her thin tears
"God I love you so much Sara" He hugged her again
"So will you come back home with me?" Sara searched
his eyes
"I have no other place to call home" He placed a soft
kiss on her lips.
2 years after
Lawson and Sara were on the sofa watching a late night
movie. Sara was resting on his shoulders when she felt
the movement
"Lawson Lawson, it moved again…don't miss it this time
touch touch" she gently placed his palm on the side of
the stomach. Both felt the movement of their child
"I can feel him…I can feel him" Lawson placed his head
on her belly
"I can feel him growing each day inside of me…"
"What do you think its saying now by this movement?"
"Thank you dada for believing in me" she laughed. They
both laughed "The movement has stopped" he slowly
removed his head from her stomach, "I think he's
sleeping"
Sara rested on his shoulders again, "In six months you'd
be a father, "You finally got your miracle"
Lawson tilted his wife's face to him, looking into her
eyes, "Sara…you were the miracle I needed. Thank you for
not leaving me."
Sara tickled his nose with hers, "I love you too. Always
will", she smiled, "We missed a whole lot on our movie"
"Movie can wait, but this can't" He gently planted a kiss
on her belly.
Hi Friends,
First, we forget our vows so easily, so quickly that once
our marriages start hitting the rocks, we fail to realize
that there is power in union. When there is union, every
mountain can be subdued. The problem is people don't
yet understand the concept of marriage and trust me,
until you do, please don't go to the alter because what
you don't understand will eventually become a burden
and confuse you. The concept of marriage is 'for better,
for worse'. The 'worse' moments always come. I am not
saying expect bad things but I'm saying that challenges
come in marriage to make you stronger in oneness so
don't use it against yourselves.
Second, miracles are real and I hope we all learn to have
the patience to have our miracles in the end. Remember
that marriage is a 'stick and stay' relationship not a 'hit
and run' thing.
Remember your vows each day, enjoy your marriage, you
deserve it!
P.s. sorry for the long read. Hihi. I just read it somewhere the web
and thought of sharing it here. I love it. So inspiring and moving..
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